If I didn't know that I was in my right mind I would think that needed some type of psychotropic medication.. one minute I'm doing alright, and the next minute I can't stand him...but all the while I know that I still love him.
This was my first weekend with out him. When your just busy doing life, you have no idea how your can can be centered around an consumed by someone or something else. I got up like I always do, I did the grocery shopping like I always do...but he wasn't here to talk to, to ask all those seemingly insignificant, beautiful questions.....
Don't misunderstand me, my children are great company and I thank God every day that I have them, but despite our problems my husband was my friend, my best friend....any way.....
I can't way that I've ever been more happy for the weekend to come to an end, back to work....thank God I have a job to go to. I can occupy my mind with mindless work and put my emotions in my pocket for eight hours. As for tonight, I'm going to stay up until I'm totally exhausted...when I do go to bed I want to pass out...
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It's difficult when the person you are used to talking through problems with is the source of the pain. I wish I could hug you right now.
ReplyDeleteRegg~ I can't tell you how hard it can be, but Like I said, the kids are amazing...God has blessed me several times over *HUGS*
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